He's Just not that into you...anymore

I have not seen the movie or read the book or watched Oprah talk about it....these are just more of my random thoughts

No more good mornings, good evenings or lucky goodnights
Maybe a hello, how you doing, or hey....maybe
No more shard thoughts, dreams, or desires
Only a comlpaint or two and a let's talk about something else
I'll call you back in a few minutes
since when do minutes turn into hours and hours into days.....
Seriously, why haven't you called me in two days?!?

Since when did we have to beg for it....
I am way to stuck up to ask for a date
Way to confident....
The Treasure never does the hunting
Time to move on...

But lets face reality
when you completely let go and move on look who is back at your doorstep...
yep you got it.

It's him....
not wanting to see you with anyone else
oh no not hating is what he says
but also not wanting to step up to the plate
So is he playing hard to get?
Thats your role not his
Or is he just not that into you

Marriage...

Well, it's almost that time of the year again..."WEDDING SEASON." Each year as this season approaches I question whether or not I'm ready for marriage. And each year I conlude "NO!" Marriage is more than just a conventional hook-up that many have dove into. The person that I marry today may and more than likely will not be the same person 10-15 years from now. So, getting married for supreficial reasons is overrated to me. Marriage is supposed to be a committment to share with one another through the good and the bad.

A few years back I hung on the fence as to whether or not I would divorce my husband if he cheated. Now I'm off the fence but I got a machete in my hand over by the fence :-)! I hang cheating up there with lying, once you breach that line of trust its hard to get it back. Why cheat? If you're not happy or satisfied....say you're not happy or satisfied and try to work it out. If it can't be worked out then DIP! But if we could work through it, then I'd be willing to do it because we took vows of "...for better or for worse." Now if you step out again, it's a wrap...I'm chucking you the deuces.

The other thing that scares me about this is what if the shoe is on the other foot and I cheated, then what? If I cry that I wasn't been satisfied or he never tried to work on us, would I still feel as strongly as I would if it happend to me? I don't know but hopefully I won't have to find that out. I don't really forsee myself cheating but anything is possible...right?